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There's so much happening, not enough of it good, and I can't be inspired to write about it now, but let's just say I'm significantly emotionally drained.

My family isn't going to be together this christmas. This boxing day. Which is our christmas becuase of spouses etc. There's nothing I can do about it, but this changes a lot. This changes how my family interacts, how we speak of eacother, who we mention around who and who we don't.

We were doing so well, but not as well as I thought we were. Apparently I was looking at our family through rose coloured glasses and no one ever thought to shatter them for me to make this a little less painful.

    it might not seem like a big deal, but this will change us and it's already changed me.

it's not my fault, no, but it is my family and i want to see them happy. i want to fix them. i want to fix them so badly but i really can't and i can't be expected to, as much as i am.

no sex in three months!!!!!!

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and i saw a boy that i adore so hard and i DID NOT SLEEP with him. and I WILL not sleep with him. No sir, not me, not I!


And no, it was not the Chad.

so leanna popped by in my last hour of work, and then came over to my place after work where we chatted and such, and then she left around 4:30 and then I managed to stay awake for maybe an hour more before PASSING THE FUCK OUT and waking up at 11:30.

awesome? i think so.

i hope every enjoyed birthday parties, nuit blanche, gratuitious drinking and whatever else it was that people seemed to be getting up to tonight!

i'm off to bed again, work beckons in the a.m.

i hate my job.

Well, alright, here's what's been going on in my life, as I've not really been around a lot lately.

1) I had to take Bree to the vet today because on Monday I noticed she had some redness around her nail on her right back paw. I let it ride a couple days, see if maybe it was just an agitation of some kind but today the little one was limping so I =had= to take her in because, well, wtf, so $400 later, she had an ear infection which she scratched with her back paw which spread to her nail which made her gimpy. So now it's a month of pills and drops and another vet visit next week to make sure she's on track.

But she's okay.

2) I've decided to take an extra semester worth of classes to make my life easier over the coming fall/winter semesters. So graduation is now January 2009.


3) I've been doing my readings for class. WHAT IS UP WITH THAT?


4) I got my student line of credit increase, so I'm not going to be a blitthering ball of stress with regards to money.


5) There are no boys in my life. No prospects, not looking, just trying to take care of myself right now. Chad's there in the background, but that's always been the case since he showed up. I like it, but that's where things will stay, I think.

6) There was something else that I was going to say but I forgot. OH! I remember. I hate those fucking yoplait commercials. The one where the fucking grey hair dumbass dude is sitting in a 'bar' and is all like 'give me a double.' and then the stupid bar wench gives him a big container of fucking yogourt. And the other one where she's all "DID YOU KNOW IT HAS ONE TRILLION GAZILLION PROBIOTIC CULTURES!?!?!?!!" and then the greyhaired fuck turns around to the 'bar' and is all " I don't want to hear any of say that i'm not CULTURED."

WOW. they're really stretching it over there at Yoplait.



Oh and anyone who wants to come watch Grey's at my place tomorrow night is more than welcome. Come over a little before it starts(when is that?) and we'll get settled before. Bring your own snacks and such as I'm vacant except for a lettuce and carrots and my line of credit isn't in until next week:P

Love and Kittens.



OOH OH OH and PS if anyone has an extra can opener and/or vegetable peeler, could i have it?:D

So I've really only just hoped on the youtube band wagon in that i go on and find random crap when I'm bored. Naturally, since I'm the crazy cat lady, I happened upon some cat stuff that I found to be more than moderately amusing.

WATCH THEM.